Lily of the valley,
Bright and morning star
Fairest of ten thousand, you are
How can I perceive Your beauty,
I long to see your face Jesus, Jesus
More of you and less of me….Jesus
I know that my journey into true and deep relationship with Jesus as my saviour would never have begun if God had not spoken directly to me in 2003 and told me to join Springfield. At that point in my life I was so angry with God. In fact I was raging with a God I professed not to believe in. Various experiences in my life had made me determined never, ever to go to a church again.God was a malevolent being (if he existed at all) and all vicars, priests, elders, ministers etc… were just the worst people in the world and to be avoided at all costs. I was a pretty difficult person, full of anger, sadness and confusion.
I found a church where I could be real,open and obnoxious and still be loved
Now?? Well, in 2010 I left a job I loved and I am currently at Ridley Hall Cambridge, training to be a priest — one of those people who should be avoided at all costs! This summer I will be ordained and begin a curacy in the Diocese of Oxford at Holy Trinity Sunningdale.
I would never have believed the call or responded to the call if there had not been fabulous people at Springfield who encouraged, challenged and inspired me. God sent me to a church where being real matters more than being perfect. A church where people were gracious enough to see beyond my faults and facade and see my God-given gifts and potential. I thank Will for taking me seriously when I told him in 2005 what I thought God was calling me to. Will walked with me through the process. I am immensely grateful for his wisdom in doing it slowly, not letting me rush ahead, for sensing what areas of my life needed to be dealt with first.
Springfield is an amazing church and there is so much that I will take from it into my future ministry and it will always hold a dear place in my heart. It is the church where I was not afraid to have the mess stripped away and the real me uncovered. I am definitely not looking forward to my final service there in a couple of months. God called me to Springfield and for that I will always give thanks.